Journal # 12

Well, what a start to grade 12. I can officially say I have gotten off to a bad start. Not completely though, I have managed to join the volleyball team late, and I decided to coach the junior and senior girls basketball team. I told myself going into grade 12 that I wasn’t going to take on and get involved with too many sports, that didn’t happen. For some reason I just cant keep away, or maybe it is just because I can’t say “no” to people. I mean I didn’t have to play volleyball and coach the girls but I was asked to, and I said yes. I thought I could handle the sports and school at the same time, I guess I was wrong. Once again AJ Howard has dug himself into a hole full of homework that needs to be done. There is no one to blame but myself with this, I have struggled with this all my life. I am not sure why I put my homework aside and worry about my sports. My parents like to tell me that it is laziness, maybe this is true. I do find myself tired day in and day out, mentally and physically exhausted. This doesn’t make things better; it usually follows with me being completely stressed out not knowing where to start. Then when I finally find myself getting caught up more work is assigned, or my girlfriend and I are fighting. Something happens to bring more stress upon myself.

As to my parents calling my lazy, I can somewhat agree with them, but at the same time its very hard to finish assignments when your completely drained. This is just the beginning, its only November I’m terrified. Senior basketball is about to start, which means practice every morning at 7 am. This also brings the majority of my stress, this is my last year at highscool and I plan on playing university basketball. I need to have an excellent season and put a lot of effort into this basketball season. I am already trying to find methods so that I can have an A level season, but also an A level on the report card. The main thing I like to thing is I’m very persistent; I am not the type of person to give up. So I can say I am trying to do my best in each class, although in most cases it does not seem that way. I have dug myself in a hole, and I am trying to find the quickest and most effective way to get out of it.